Every time I push these headphones into my ears, I feel like I am back at one. I am pouring, I am choking, I can't breathe..every single song, every single chorus, every single line from the CD you have given me. Forgive me, this is not that easy.

Just When You Thought...

I use to laugh at life, because I didn't think anything would ever make me feel this way, I thought whatever doesn't kill you..only makes you stronger. I can no longer laugh, I am not strong enough.

Life..I wonder..

Needing

I need to ride..ride away my problems. Be free, free from this pressure. I want to leave. Leave this world behind.



Wish life was simple.

On my own again.

They say "you don't know what you got 'til you lose it". I understand that to the fullest for quite some time now. Today, I loss something, and I knew I was going to lose it from the get go; even though I knew exactly what I had. A lesson that I really learned was: Don't take things for granted when its your hand, because when you let go...you will go down hard. This amplitude of me beliving in fate is overwhelming..because lately, everything just seems like a fictional, unreal, unbelievable story...whateever you want to call it. The catch is, what I felt about it was real. How much I hate October in my life...I hate how all my downfalls happen during Octobers..not to mention 2009 has been one devastating year..so much negative events had happen that I can't even recall what's been good with 2009.


2009 leave me alone..

Don't let me hang dry, you promised.