Self Motivation At Its Best

24 hour fitness, exhausting work out, funny small talk, pretending we are not lookin at girls,summer breeze, East 14th, asked myself "Can I do it?", I looked straight, took off, and ran home. That was a good run.

lalala

Man today was a tiring day...went to shoot a small fashion/makeup show, good experience..but its unfortunate that fast pace events really are outside of my interest. So many pictures to review..edit. arghh


I like this picture:


credit goes to photographer Daniel Pham


MARK IS COMING HOME FROM BOOT CAMP YAY

Impact

Today, I saw a dying man in the middle of the street, blood everywhere on the back of his head.

Couldn't Believe It

A young child has returned to God. RIP kid, you were a great dancer, I am honored to have taken a picture of you

Posers

Yeah you are into pop music, yeah you know who Michael Jackson is, but I am tired of people acting all sad cus the King of Pop died because hes the King of Pop..not because you like him. You just acting like you sad cus everyone else is..because the king of pop is dead...get over yourself and stop acting like it matters. Who gives a fuck? when he was still alive how many of you sobbing ass people or correction, you internet sobbing ass people posting shit on your myspace, facebook, and aim profile actually cared about what he was doing when he was still alive. GTFO. I wasn't thinking about jackson yesterday, the day before, or the past 6 months until today because he died. But I don't really give a fuck because he was dead to me anyways cus I don't even care about his life to begin with, and i aint gon act like a lil kid and be sad and put shit on my profile because my other lil kid friends are doing the same shit. Ventilation is best.

Irritated

Sometimes..I just really don't understand how people get their photos published and they look like shit. On top of that, they get pay 4 digits a project..or more. Thank god I am more of a photo enthusiast than trying to make money out of it..or else I would really write a letter to those photographers and tell em to retire early. I am not trippen about how much they make, I just hate how they are being recognize for lack of perspective, lack of mind, lack of art..most definitely lack of skills and it so happens a lot of these fools are on the magazine I subscribe to damn it. GTFO.

A Little Corny..but is ok

Coworker sent me this at work today, I guess is one of those things that are right in front of your face but you will never realize it and ignorant for a life time until someone wise point it out to you. Materialistic can be dangerous :

Used vs. Loved

While a man was polishing his new car, his 4 yr old son picked up a
stone and scratched lines on the side of the car. In anger, the man took
the child's hand and hit it many times; not realizing he was using a
wrench.


At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple
fractures.

When the child saw his father.....with painful eyes he asked, 'Dad when
will my fingers grow back?'

The man was so hurt and speechless; he went back to his car and kicked
it a lot of times. Devastated by his own actions.......sitting in front
of that car he looked at the scratches; the child had written 'LOVE YOU
DAD'.
The next day that man committed suicide. . .. Anger and Love have no
limits; choose the latter to have a beautiful, lovely life..... Things
are to be used and people are to be loved, But the problem in today's
world is that, People are used and things are loved...

During the day, be careful to keep this thought in mind: Things are to
be used, but People are to be loved ... Be yourself....This is the only
day we HAVE. Have a nice day Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.

Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits they become
character; Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

I'm glad a friend forwarded this to me as a reminder..
If you don't pass this on to anybody, nothing bad will happen; if you
do,

you will have ministered to someone.


Stay FAITHFUL and Be GRATEFUL





"I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me"

Good Morning, World.

It's 7:36 AM, I just got in about 10 minutes ago. Woke up at 5:20 but rolled around the bed for like a good 45 minutes, I guess I got really tired from last night. But I decided to lag even more, I went to buy mcdonalds for breakfast..yummmm bad calories. I am surprised I got to Richmond in 20 minutes even with the lateness…whatever.

Some thoughts while driving and now:

-I was listening to linkin park- “shadow of the day” during sun rise, if you know the song, you will know why I said that.

-Why do CHP encourage people to report drunk drivers when we can’t talk on our cell phones while operating a motor vehicle? Let say you were driving alone with no passengers, would that be illegal? Then the next question is, who has more of a chance getting into a collision first? The drunk driver? Or the sober driver with the cell phone chasing after the drunk driver and trying to read his license plate at 70 mph? Hmmm?

-Gavin Newsom for next Governor

-There’s an article on S.F. Gate bashing the restaurants that try too hard to dim their lights to set a mood. Bout time someone made this issue publicized. Especially for Cheese Cake Factory at Stoneridge, they need to turn up their lights so I can overlook at the stains and dry water spots that are in every piece of eating utensils. http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/blogs/mbauer/detail?entry_id=42140&tsp=1

-I was frustrated for a second when I heard July 4th was on a Saturday..thinking I just lost a free day of pay, but turns out I have no work on July 3rd, and I get full 8 hour pay that day…thumbs up to federal government

-I don’t understand why I can talk well inside my head, but when I open my mouth, gibberish comes out.

Ok time to read news

"Nick, you're awesome"

Made my day at work.

The Weekend

I had tons of fun yesterday just chilling at buddhas house...from playing call of duty to drinking heineken..and from an vacant room to a studio hahahah The shoot I had was a good experience and I was surprised I made one of buddha's empty room into a studio and it actually worked. I just finished editing the pictures(see below)..i know.... its saturday night and im at home. Oh well. I haven't done much the past weekends..fridays and saturdays starting to feel like every other day, except no work. I spent half of the day at Sunnyvale chillin at my homie's shop, watched him fix cars..(including my sisters), and now I'm about just pop in a movie and relax at home with my chips ahoy and milk. Ain't so bad, I rather be at home than drinking and clubbingg. Plus, I try to take it slow on saturdays so I can go to church the next day. Oh that reminded me something that irritated me, my auntie thinks I have been devoting myself to church every weekend because I suppose to secretly have "a girl friend"..is funny how people doubt you cus they think they know who you are, and people don't change..people do change..I use to hate church, I use to hate bible study, I use to think to myself in bed why am I even baptised? Now I pray and thank the lord every night in bed and I go to church by myself every week because there is no better place to be. I felt really disrespected against my religion and my faith when my aunt said that.

My coworker told me on friday that "God is everywhere, you don't have to go to church" hahahha thats half true.

Lalalalla!

I'm tired...hmmm Sing's Muay Thai gym opening soon on hesperian..waiting for my groupies to join in, hopefully it will be more fun than garage trainings. I have like 5 shoots lining up and I am lazyyyyyy...I had 3 hours of sleep last night..no more partying thursdays :(. Its only been first week of work but I'm backed up with work that can last me for the rest of the month. I just found out my job title is an Automation Clerk..iono wth that is. Summer has been boring, having a full time job means I can't plan to do anything exciting outta town..hopefully I will have enough leave to go Miami with my Sergent in July and partyyyy.. most likely not :(. I have to hit the gym more often, too much beerrrrr. The photoshoot was pretty funny tonite..I want an Xbox again...because call of duty was fun at buddhas. aokdaodpoaksodak imma go take a shit and shower.

Longer day..shorter nights

I've been up since 5 this morning..is really not fun. But today, I learned to make something that made me a bit more comfortable: A to buy list. It motivates me to look forward to work everyday, and then murder the 8 hours of sleepiness. My list is getting hella big..not in terms of items, but the price tag is scaring me already. I'm at $5,000 already -.- And my goal is to be able to save and buy everything within that $5000 this summer. Its a little hard, but I think I can manage. In the end, I was able to live with 50 bucks for 2 weeks hahaha. Being 21 doesn't concern my wallet and I anymore cus I rarely drink, I hate to admit but I might have already passed that 21 partying stage. People always say take advantage of your 21 and 22 before you get too old..but I really don't see a point of it because how i develop now affects my later years, and I am not ready to be a person someone wants to be, I want to be what I want to be. hahahhaha well........im about to headout to a lounge right now hahhaha cus david said there's too much girls and there aren't enough guys to even out. Oh man, I wonder how work is going to be like tomorrow

I'm not a hypocrite!

Wise Guy

Work has been so tiring!..waking up at 5 am everyday driving to Richmond is not an easy task but I am struggling to make it happen. Especially today, I worked 8 hours, then I worked an extra 4 hours at school for free with my photo lab manager..so I can check out strobes over the summer to play with :)

So I was having a talk with my photolab manager today..his name is James Saxon. Mark my words, if this guy was famous, you would definitely know him because he would be one of the smartest man you would ever talk to..just about anything. Besides knowing everything about photography since camera was invented, he talks about living life. We were discussing the whole political Swine Flu, North Korea and Iran issues, and I would never forget what he said to me while looking at me in the eyes,

"I hate when people push me with fear...because no matter how much fear there is, things will not get better because I am afraid"

Yeah, he points out the obvious, but I would never think of it like he did! I am scare of war, im scare of diseases...but after what James said, I learned that if you can't make yourself stay positive, no one can ever will. I think that's a quote that I must keep to myself for the rest of my life. And today was just one of those days that I'm glad that I've lived and learned...except for the 12 hour shift.

I was eating a sandwich my sister made today, I took a bite and stared at it..I saw mustard..and I thought to myself "Yeah, mustards good" ahahhah good times.

Who's Next?

First the N. Koreans are threatening to bomb us..now Iran is blaming U.S for interference of their election, and they are thinking about making nuclear bombs too. War hungry countries are fucking retarded.

blah

Im kinda drunk right now cus i just got back from dnbs...since I have nothing to do online and im waiting for this beer fullness to go away, I'm writing. I was wondering how come some girls tend to put their hands in their pocket and yank their pockets forward..to make their butt look bigger for the guys behind em...its hella funny....Oh I got an 88/89 on my fina; and I didnt studi. I was going to cheat on my final but the tacher endded up making it open notes..wtf? It's summer and it's not hot. I'm hela full right now..5 dollar beer ftw. April, erika, kc, and paul are at jollie bees right now..(note that they are all filipinos), I have no life because I'm on my blog 2 in the morning. I think we are going to the gun range tomorrow. I can't wait til i read this shit tomorrow cus i ono wat the hell im typing. I have work tomorrow and graduation is a bitch because traffic and crowd control is a bitch. My new job starts on Monday and Im sad. I don't think I got the job at SLPD because i had 2 hours of sleep before my interview. Fuckkkkkk imma go eat.......

All I needed was one dream. And it starts all over again...dude I hate dreams..andi had one last nite..it was as clear as a crystal ball. Why do the good dreams always end short? or are they the dreams that are so good that you urge urself to wake up to see if its reality? I DON'T KNOW.

I didn't win my 6 dollar random pick mega million....I was going to buy out dnbs if i won

yayyyyy

Tomorrow is my last final! sooo relieved that I'm not even studying right now. So I just found out today I only need two more classes to graduate my BS, I regret not taking enough class throughout the year..because I would have walked this year. FUCK! Oh well..not like there's places hiring right now, and I have to finish my minor..Time is on my side.

I have a internship interview tomorrow at SLPD, and I am not looking forward to it because the word from the inside is that there are favortism involved. Its a disadventage for me cus I don't got any network @ SLPD :(. I believe I am the first to get interviewed, so either I set the standards for the rest of the 100 applicants high up in the sky, or I just suck so bad that the recruiting officer will tell me on the spot I am not hired. Little nervous but I've been through enough interviews to know I will do fine..I just have to keep telling myself that haha. 100 applicants fighting for 1 opening...fml

My theory to interviews:

Let myself loose and have my inner-self shine

Latest:



Buddha x Marley @ Haight, SF..10 pictures in one. Check out his wedgie

Dying

Maybe we can't foresee what will happen tomorrow, but its scary that death is everyone's predicted future. I had a great chat with my mom today, we had our laughter, gossips, and plans. As my mom is going to move out by the end of this week, I started to think to myself..my mom is entering her 50s, how much longer is she going to be around? How can I bear with myself 20-30 years later when the person I love the most has to accept reality? Isn't that a scary thought? While you look at this person you love so deeply in the eyes, and so lively, behind those great moments, you know that one day, it will all disappear because life is just too short for happiness. Especially, people tend to live their life everyday and not think about their last days...and today was the day I knocked down the wall of avoiding the truth and gave some thoughts to it. And I really scared myself..no wonder people don't really talk about dying.

I forgot when I thought about this but it was definitely something to think about if you are trying to scare yourself.